oi Dub. SO frustrating! Why do they make this process SO prone to human error? Don't they know they are messing around with people's lives? Im so bitter right now. I feel for you and everyone else who is being abused by these people. I truly hope its over for you soon.
Thanks.. I really feel like giving up hope at this point. I called the MP back and the guy was like "Oh you should hear something within A MONTH!" !!!!!!
I was upset and he said "Oh we'll say it's urgent"... but I really feel like giving up. If I could even visit him it would make it better, but of course they have to take my passport.
The least they could do is answer one of the many emails I've sent. My life is literally on hold. I sit in my room and wait for the mail to run. It doesn't come and so I take sleeping pills and sleep until the mail runs the next day... repeat. That's about all I can stand now.. I can't live or go out or face people who say "Oh, aren't you miserable?", etc.
hah yeah. I know what you mean about your life being on hold. I knew mine would be for a while, but I wasnt prepared to be the poster child for the worst possible scenario. Me and at least one other person are being made to simply wait for sponsorship for an extended period of time. who knows whats going to happen after this? if this portion completes within my lifetime how many years will the PR portion take? I, too feel hopeless. The only light in my life right now is that I can glance over and see my love. I have to apply for an extension in a month. I fear SO greatly that it wont be approved this time for some reason. I just feel like my luck has run out. All I can see in my future is darkness. Each day feels like a slow sad journey to something terrible.
Please go easy on the pills. Its not good for your body to drug it up so much. I know what you are going through believe me and I dont think its easy or your fault. But you may make your mental state even worse by drugging yourself up. Please TRY to take good care of yourself while you deal with all this.
Dub & Rene,
I do understand and I know easy because I landed but before this I had to constantly tell myself that it would be magical and it would land on the right desk and so forth. I truly believe that we can create experiences through our worry and our doubts and our negative energy because if we are sending out negative energy to others they will feel it on some level. These are my beliefs so you can take them or leave them. :)
I would send positive energy to those working on the applications and sending out positive thoughts that it would all be well and I have experienced this working in peoples lives.
So when you make statements such as those negative towards the very people that are working on your papers I believe it creates an energetic connection between you. I was reminded many times during my border crossings by my mentors that these people are NOT out to get me and they are simply men and women going to work each day and doing a job. It's nothing more. They aren't interested in making your life miserable or making you wait or anything. Yes there are those who want power and love it and there are a few bad seeds in all places.
Like Eurochris shared when he landed the officer told him when he landed if you aren't a criminal and you have a good reason for being in Canada they want you there!!!! So that made me much calmer when I would remind myself of that.
It's hard when it's YOUR application and to not feel like a victim but just trust that there was a reason you can't see and even if it's for personal growth to learn to trust or think positive or something and it will EVENTUALLY all work out. We can never see ahead but trusting and knowing it will be ok is really important in keeping your sanity!!!
I know it looks glim and it's so overwhelming to have all these limitations and pieces not coming together. I KNOW!!! Just know you are going to be ok and it will get processed and try if you can to see the outcome in a positive light and send positive energy to those working on your application and envision them seeing it perfect and flawless and moving on to Buffalo quickly!!! :) It really works!! ;)
I just know you are going through so much and we all have our own stories to get where we are and mine has not been an easy one by any means but I always said OUT LOUD "NOTHING CAN STOP US NOW" and it didn't!!!
I'm thinking of you both and wishing you both the best of luck and to have the PR asap!!! :)
Yesterday I cried and begged God to help me because I was at my breaking point. About 10 minutes ago, the mailman rang the bell and delivered my visa. :)
Thank you everyone... thank you for putting up with my whining and complaining and not being around because of my depression. You have really helped me so much both with practical advice and moral support.
I give NOO thanks to the NYC office. My visa was stamped on the 28th and mailed on the 19th... it sat in their office for almost a month. I did get my photos back though.
I have tons to do. I plan on landing on Friday. I'm gonna get my snow tires put on now so I don't have to haul them up there.
Thank you everyone! Thank you God :)
Wow that is Such great news!!! ;) I"m sooooooooooooooooo happy for you!!! :) I totally understand the breaking point and all the emotions and so now you can have something exciting to look forward to!!! :)
Yay!!! :) SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO happy for you!!! :)
Happy landing too!!! :)
Congratulations on beginning a new chapter in your life :)
YAYAYYAYAY!!!!!! As I said on your blog, CONGRATULATIONS!!! And yes, I do feel the need to use that many exclamation points! Have a safe and happy landing and tell us all about it!
I can't wait to join you all in the ranks of landed residents :)